1. |
departure
08:29
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happy for you but i feel like i will be lonely
don't know what i'll do without you
feeling lost but hopefully
you'll be better off, i'll continue being as carefree
it won't be different but you won't be here to save me
being optimistic's a gift from god
all i can do is just nod nod nod
i express my emotions in less than desirable ways
i'm sorry if i hurt you, i don't have a say
next year i'll make no friends
alone with no hope, afraid there is no end
tired of being the outcast
different from everybody else
music is how i express
gonna kill myself and go straight to hell
so before you go, at last
promise me that you'll forget me and put me to rest
please, go to sleep
forget all that you've worried about
go to sleep
take a trip into the caverns of your mind
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2. |
palindroming
05:16
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is, there a point to anything?
life's a palindrome and i'm sick of being
fed up with myself, how do i get rid of this?
maybe i should stop fucking crying about it
bottled up emotions, it's whatever i'll deal with it
my life's not important why should i seek help for that?
chronically online, antisocial and ignorant
i shouldn't make these songs, nobody will care about them
i've been thinking about how i could get normal again
time keeps going but i haven't changed even a bit
i want to get more friends, maybe then i'll feel better
it's not gonna happen, optimism is sadder
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3. |
teenage existentialism
05:42
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"i feel like shit"
i'll leave the call for today
anxiety on blast, what the fuck am i doing
lay in bed, doomscroll till the next day
"maybe i should stop dealing with this bullshit"
i'm being told to wait what the fuck should i do
write these angsty lyrics till i pass out in my drool
my life was never worth it, anyway
there's no point to these songs, anyway
wait, just wait
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i thought you knew
06:04
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i don't want to cry
but something inside is calling me
so many goddamn lies
you
after all we've been through
do you think you could dispose of me?
i'd even get down on my knees
just for a last goodbye
i'm sick and tired of your bullshit
don't know where to start with you
i thought you were my friend
were supposed to be together until the end
and then you just up and went
no i do not want to meet your friends
they all make fun of me, i thought you knew this
i cried at the bus stop and you didn't even notice
that was the time i hit one of them, i got hit back
i felt powerless i think he just lacked attention
hate having to pretend, i thought you knew this
"i thought you knew this"
"i thought you knew this"
"i thought you knew this"
i know i'm stupid
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5. |
varier
10:00
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vaikus ja mustus
minu silmades ja kõrvades
midagi ei toimu,
nagu olekski surma väravate ees
ma ei tundnud midagi
pimeduse varju sees,
nagu oleksin ma hing
pilvisuse sees
mälestuste metsas roomasin
nägin pere, inimesi, kohti
kuid ei mäletanud nende tähtsust
ainuke asi, mis ma teadsin,
olin igavesti kadunud
is there any point to putting effort in?
we live and die like a burst of energy
why do we exist?
it doesn't feel feasible to live it to the fullest
what happens in the future?
time goes by like a butterfly
why is this happening?
i don't know, but my body thinks i should panic
how do i get rid of this feeling in my stomach?
better live with it than bother anyone about it
anxiety creeping up on you
anxiety creeping up on you
anxiety creeping up on you
i don't want to try anymore
i want to lay in bed and try again tomorrow
believing's just another woe
my childish ignorance, beyond hope
times where i had no care at all
simplicity at it's finest
where has the time gone?
i dont want to run
was i ever happy or just deluded
i dont want to run
i dont want to hide
i dont want to cry
what is happening to me?
a hand reaches out to me
i don't want to pull
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6. |
cold, dark, hope
04:48
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spirits roam yet i'm still alone
coldness darkness, hopeless sliver of hope
spirits roam yet i'm still alone
coldness darkness, hopeless sliver of hope
spirits roam yet i am still alone
coldness darkness, hopeless sliver of hope
endless drone i'm gonna wake up from a dream
is this earth real, am i even real at all?
where death has reared itself a throne
all i ever was a pointless statistic
spirits roam yet i'm still alone
coldness darkness, hopeless sliver of hope
endless drone i'm gonna wake up from a dream
is this earth real, am i even real at all?
where death has reared itself a throne
all i ever was a pointless statistic
i don't want to be an attention whore
i simply just want to be left alone
just leave me
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